How I Truly Came to Understand the Power of Forgiveness!

Guilt.

Misunderstanding.

Anger.

All 3 lead me to understand the power of forgiveness. I was wrong. What I said was hurtful. I didn’t understand the power of my words. I was mad at myself and the lingering horrible feeling eventually led me to apologize. As a believer, I know that forgiving a person is the right thing to do, I know that God is pleased with me when I do forgive, and I know God has forgiven me plenty of times for my shortcomings, but I never understood the power of forgiveness until it was required from someone I loved in order to rebuild trust.

 

For many, being forgiven is an act that many believers only expect in their private conversations with God. It’s an act of surrendering- surrendering to the grace of God and the ability to keep living knowing that God is still there, but what happens when that transcending spirit isn’t always what we experience in the world? We fail to operate in the essence that God has made us.  Existing in the image of God means being able to forgive and ask for forgiveness when wrong. The two are inseparable. It took me understanding that both forgiving myself and receiving forgiveness from the other person in my situation was needed. I could not expect to live life forgiving people for various reasons without yielding in the act of asking for forgiveness myself.

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Drained Not Dead:How an Unlikely End to Memorial Day Weekend Led Me to Make a Decision

This past Memorial Day Weekend had an unlikely ending. I was traveling back to D.C. from NYC, the city that always gives me a bittersweet kiss goodbye. I had started the weekend contemplating a major life decision, which was paying off a student loan! While in NYC I talked it over with friends, did the math, and decided to use the time spent traveling on the bus as thee time to make my decision. It started in prayer, which led to silence, which resulted in a nap, which resulted in me forgetting to make a decision upon waking up.

Fast forward

I returned to the District right before midnight on Monday, and all was well until I got to my car and it wouldn’t start. My car not starting was the last thing my tired mind and body wanted to deal with. Who was I going to call at midnight for a jump? Why does the D.C metro stop running so early (compared to the MTA in NY)?  Why did this have to happen now? “Lord, please let it be the battery and nothing else.” Then it hit me like a ton of bricks- why was I so drained after a great weekend get away? Oh, I still hadn’t decided what I was going to do about this nagging student loan. At that moment, my car’s battery was my mind. The same thing had happened to both my mind and my car. Both were drained.

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Lady Please, Man Listen this is Spiritual Warfare

{Disclaimer: This is not at all an attack on anyone}

What this is, though, is spiritual warfare and a call to getting our spiritual lives on the right path. We are all in this together and I get it- you’re young having fun, meeting new people and living life on your own terms, but how do you feel? Are the things or people you are choosing to engage in or be around making you happy? What has your attention? All questions that I had to ask myself in order to get my spiritual priorities in check.

And let me just say, that I am not at all the “Perfect Christian” -and in spite of not having that label- I am Christian and I have always known Jesus! So I knew when I wasn’t in communion with him because my spirit became uncomfortable . Whether it was people, attention (or the lack there of) , actions, or thoughts the separation was noticeable, and Jesus is just one thing I’ll never be satisfied without, so some things had to change.

My environment for one had to change, so did my relationships, and my focus. I wasn’t interested in being in clubs to have a good time, I stopped answering phone calls and texts from people who I was just stomaching   and started focusing on my spirit and vision.

 Below I’ve listed 5 techniques I’m using to come and maintain spiritually fit.

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5 Ways to Kickstart Your Prayer Routine

Pray!

But HOW?

 
No matter what religion you identify with, God is interested in your heart and prayer is the key to exposing that. Many times I would hear people say, “but I don’t know how to pray” and I use to find myself saying, “oh, it’s easy”, but in actuality many people don’t pray because they never had to or were never taught. We’ve all seen the grace of God due to a praying grandmother/ mother/father etc, but it comes a time in a one’s life where they must learn to know God for themselves.  God hears prayers that come from a humble heart and we saw with King Josiah in 2nd Chronicles 34:27, his obedience and connection(prayer) to God spared him from destruction (literally). We can all learn something from King Josiah and is praying habits so I would like to share 5 simple ways that everyone who is convicted to connect with God can do to kickstart their relationship. 

1. Just start: 

Praying is simply talking to God. It’s you opening your heart to him and soliciting him to intervene in your life. You can start by saying, “Father God I come to you….” and go from there. Whatever is on your heart or troubling your mind just put it all out there he is listening. If you find it hard to  just start talking-open a bible and recite the Lord’s prayer (Matthew 6:9-13).

2. Be expectant:

 When we open our mouths to pray, we should do so expectantly. knowing that God is listening and God will  provide for you. Know that God is waiting for to ask and he’ll  do the rest. (John 16:24)
3. Be Authentic:

“Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything by prayer and supplication with thanksgiving let your requests be made known to God.” (Philippians 4:6). Pray because you want and need God’s guidance, not because others are doing it and

4. Be Consistent

I’m sure we all like consistency in our lives, especially in our relationships, so just like any other relationship in your life be consistent with God. It’s a connection that transforms from a habit to a relationship and comes with great benefits. The power of prayer is a unique feeling that once you start you’re not going to want to stop. It’s real!

5. Pray out loud

God hears both a silent prayer and a spoken prayer, but when you first start your prayer routine get use to speaking to God just how you would in conversation with your friends. Use this time to get comfortable talking to God and building the relationship, so that when you don’t have the strength to form the words he’ll still be there listening to your heart, “the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express” (Romans 8:26).
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My Apologies, and…..

What’s in store!

I know, I know it’s been a whole month and there is really no excuse I can cook up as to why I haven’t been writing. However, balancing a new love life, the day job, my birthday celebration, planning a 40 person Thanksgiving, and seminary applications- YES, I said seminary applications (whoo oooh) time for BnH got away from me. Soooo to backtrack, in my last post I told you about a stranger I met on the train who confirmed the purpose of my life and that purpose is to connect souls to Christ through innovative ministry( Biscuits-N-Honey) and community development!

There you have it, after many years of fighting my calling I’ve put the pieces to the puzzle and decided to finally take the first step of living in my purpose. And I must admit, I am nervous, yet I know that God makes no mistakes and I know this is the path I must travel. I will be turning in my applications in February and will see what the end will be.

I just wanted to share with all my readers my plans to inspire you all to find your passion for pursuing. I hope to share many memories and milestones with you on this journey so that I can serve as some encouragement for you to LISTEN and SEEK what’s yours!

I’ll keep you all updated!

XOXO,

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