All 3 lead me to understand the power of forgiveness. I was wrong. What I said was hurtful. I didn’t understand the power of my words. I was mad at myself and the lingering horrible feeling eventually led me to apologize. As a believer, I know that forgiving a person is the right thing to do, I know that God is pleased with me when I do forgive, and I know God has forgiven me plenty of times for my shortcomings, but I never understood the power of forgiveness until it was required from someone I loved in order to rebuild trust.
For many, being forgiven is an act that many believers only expect in their private conversations with God. It’s an act of surrendering- surrendering to the grace of God and the ability to keep living knowing that God is still there, but what happens when that transcending spirit isn’t always what we experience in the world? We fail to operate in the essence that God has made us. Existing in the image of God means being able to forgive and ask for forgiveness when wrong. The two are inseparable. It took me understanding that both forgiving myself and receiving forgiveness from the other person in my situation was needed. I could not expect to live life forgiving people for various reasons without yielding in the act of asking for forgiveness myself.
Things happen in life and forgiveness is the closest we’ll be to God. Don’t believe me?
See the what scripture says.
I knew trust would never be an option without the forgiveness of the person I had hurt. So I apologized (more than once) and the forgiveness I received allowed my spirit to move and operate freely without the haze of guilt, misunderstanding, or anger. I did not want to be a victim of my pride, so I made it a point to have a crucial conversation about the damage. Once that was over the willingness to love again was immediately felt. The fear or hesitation of not being embraced is now a mere memory. Isn’t that how we feel when we ask God to forgive us, and it happens?
It is evident to me now that forgiveness is mutually beneficial. The people in your life are God’s reminders of love. Take it from me, don’t let pride, hurt, anger, etc. stop you from asking to be forgiven because true love and liberation exists in trustworthiness!